what to do?

[Marina]

As to manage the depression because of the parting

I lived with the fellow of 6 years. Recently we parted on the mutual agreement. We very well are friends, we are encountered, we go for a walk etcetera. I always valued him for his honesty. But here now precisely his honesty kills me. It was introduced to the girl and began with it to be encountered each time, when we with it intersect, he me only about it tells. It shares with me by all, but i became now very heavily. From one side I still love him and cannot rigidly break relations, although she repeatedly indicated that to hear similar nothing I want, always it I listen, because I know that it is more to it not with whom so to share. If briefly I from his girl was converted " in good of boy"It tears up me on the part, to me him it is very it's a pity from one side, it completely was tangled, he does not know that to it to make and in this case cannot tear with me the relations it because greatly tied after so many years and I in actuality became for it very close person. But I no longer manage the emotions, I am hollow into the depression. I almost nothing eat, barely I sleep, constantly to weeping and always I am in the state of absent-mindedness. This affects work and health. I already ceased generally to understand, which occurs and I only mechanical make that which is necessary. Prompt, as to preserve good relations, but in this case not to destroy itself and to manage this unbearable mental suffering and to banish bad thoughts from the head? Any literature can eat, so that it would be possible to read a little and to realize as correct to act. I thank in advance